Her smile. Her Hug. Her Believing In Me.

So, I think this one is pretty over due. I had a dream last night that I was standing on a stage in front of probably 150 people and apparently I was going to sing a song. By the way, I'm terrified of singing in front of people, unless I'm drunk but I wasn't in this dream. Anyways, I was standing there while the lights dimmed and I was in the spot light. My heart pounding, hands clammy, legs going numb. You know...how you feel when you realized you're falling in love. ANYWAYS, I love out into the audience, hoping if I puke it doesn't land anyone and I see a familiar face. I get the feeling back in my legs and I see the sweetest smile come from this familiar face. I wanna run over and ask what she is doing here; why are you alone? The music starts playing....shit! I have to sing now. I see her mouth, "you can do this, I love you." Typical mom thing to say but all of a sudden I start singing, in front of all these people!. I feel this rush come over me and I know I can do this. I can't take my eyes off her because I know if I do then I will start freaking out and stop singing. I have secretly always wanted this to happen, me being forced to sing and just going for it. But I know, in real life, it will never happen unless I am forced and she is sitting there telling me that she supports me. If it wasn't for mothers we wouldn't be able to do, well for me, 99% of the shit I have done in my life. The reason we do some of the things we do is just so we can hear our mama's say, "I'm proud of you". Nothing compares to the feeling you get when she says that or gives you a hug. My mom gives these hugs that just...damn. If you lost your job, got evicted, your relationship ended, and your dog died....one hug from my mama and I know everything will work out. That shit is some kind of magic and I wouldn't trade it for anything. Long story short, I could only sing in the dream because my mama was sitting in the audience and she believed in me. So yeah, moral of the story....you need to show/tell your mama how much she means to you on a daily basis because she does more than you will ever realize.

I love you Mama =)

PeAcE,
Kaitlyn Nicole.