My Little Secret....

I'll start by telling you that this is nowhere near easy to admit but I must get this off my chest. Since I was a cheerleader for so many years I was naturally fit; I didn't really have to work out because my sport, nay, my life was my workout. In and out of the gym(Thunder All Stars) everyday, even when I didn't have practice. My body was a well toned, tumbling, muscle machine. So, when I had to quit, for medical reasons, I just stopped working out because my dumb ass thought that I would just keep my well toned body and stay looking the way I did. Well, I starting noticing about a year later that I was way wrong. So naturally, I went to a gym. and was doing great!! I lost about 10lbs and always had energy. I felt great about myself and that is usually how it goes until something happens to where you have to stop that as well; I moved. I moved to a town where gyms are either very expensive, or a long drive away and I have a car payment now so I don't exactly have an ample amount of money left over for that. So, over the past year and a half that I have lived down here, I have let ALL, and I do mean all, my muscles turn into fat and I've let the most important muscle get weak, the one in my right knee. So, now my knee hurts all the time and I know what you are thinking, "it can't possibly hurt all the time. You wouldn't be able to stand it." Well, you are telling this to the girl who still has a bump behind my left ear from 5 years ago when my flyer elbowed me and gave me a concussion. I understand pain, and I put up with it especially when no doctor can figure out how to fix it!!! =(

I'm sorry' now I'm just rambling. Anyways, back to the embarrassing thing that is hard to admit. I use to love to wear shorts and show off my legs and my legs use to be my favorite part of me and now I cannot wear shorts because my thighs have literally turned to mushy fat. It's gross but just shut up and don't judge me. I am going to Universal Studios for my birthday and I wanted to wear shorts but if I walk for a long period of time then my thighs rub together and it hurts. So I just don't wear shorts anymore. It's embarrassing and pisses me off at the same time. Now, that my birthday is just a month away and I've fucked around for so long, I decided enough is enough. I'm sick of not being able to look at myself in the mirror because I have damn near no exercise in my routine. The only workout I get is walking I don't even know how many miles a day at work. Which I absolutely love but I wish I had some shoes that made my legs work more too you know. Like those....um...what are they called.....Reebok Easytones. I don't know if they actually work but I think it would be worth a shot.

Anyways, my main point is I'm sick of this body I've been forced into. So, I'm going to work out every morning and every night. I could really use some tips and motivation on this so for anyone who is actually reading this, all I ask is for a little support. Is that too much to ask from friends?
PeAcE

K.n.N