Stress? No...not me...never.

I want to know your secret. How do you do it? I try deep breathing and imagining myself on a calm, peaceful beach. I refuse to let smoking be what I choose. I've also tried listening to music, which does help a little bit but I just don't ever stop stressing. I would love to not be bothered by most things; I mean, there are certain things one stresses about that is explainable, i.e. money. But, when one stresses about little the things, like I do, I have started noticing more and more how stupid and over rated it is. I only 20 years old and I'm killing myself because I'm stressing over these things that 5 years down the road WILL NOT matter. So please, someone....anyone, tell me your secret. By the way, please don't say: 1. "just stop caring". 2. "ignore them". or just plain old 3. "stop". because I can assure you it is not that easy. I am kind of stuck in a rut though; I cannot go to school until I'm 25 because the FAFSA won't give me any money for school b.c my parents make too much and I can't claim myself as dependent b.c I'm not 25. I really do love my Books A Million job, if I didn't have my heart set on a certain career then, I would never leave. Plus, I don't want to live in Florida for the rest of my life, I'm sorry but I just can't do that. I want to see more than 2 states, I want lots of land with a mountain view and horses. Anyways, sorry, back to the point. I have decided that I am going to look at technical school for Interior Decorating. I highly doubt I'll find one anywhere close to here but I'll figure something out. I, somehow, always do. I GOT IT!!!! Writing this just made my stress level go way down. Oh hell yeah!!!!! Okay so, an internet......diary i suppose is the key. Well my daddy did always say that I'm an amazing writer and I should pursue that career but honestly I would HAVE to be some type of critic because I just could write about research. I love playing with people's hair and maybe I could go to school for that one day but for now I'm not going to wait until I'm 25 just to go to school, then I would really feel like I'm wasting my life away. And that is exactly how I feel when I stress about stupid little things, like not making my boss's at both my jobs happy. I have to have 2 jobs or one full time job and I'm begging BAM to make me full time but since the economy sucks I have to wait. But I think I would be good at decorating, I mean, I am the merchandising specialist at my Books A Million. Well thank you for making my stress level subside. PeAcE <3
Until next time =)