Good Enough.

First off, do you know who you are? And I don't mean your name, age, occupation, or any of that shit. I mean like what's your path in life? Do you know where you are meant to be? Of course you don't and may never know. But it's still bugging the living shit out of me that I still have absolutely no idea and I'm 21 years old. That sounds good =)...sorry, see I just tuned 21 so that's the very first time I've gotten to actually proclaim it =). Anyways, back to my point. I have lived my life always worrying and I do mean always. I don't have too many memories where I wasn't worrying about one thing or another. I've always wondered and worried about what people thought of me, no matter how tough of a face I put on or how much I said I didn't really care, everyone cares....unless your heartless. When you're growing up there are points in your life when you stop and think that you want to change yourself, for a better life and most the time it's bullshit; you will commit to it for about 48 hours, MAYBE 72 but then you will forget, trust me. But when you really do sit down and think about what you like about yourself and what you don't; now that is when you really start to think: "what the hell is wrong with me?" And there are flaws that people ill like about you, meaning your boyfriend/girlfriend but I have started noticing flaws in myself that I just can't sweep under the rug anymore.

There is nothing we all want more than to see and make all of our dreams come true but there are changes within ourselves that we have to fix first sometimes. I'm not going to go through the list right now of the things I wanna fix but I'm sure I will one day. But wish me luck and I hope everyone likes who I become. Actually, scratch that last sentence...I don't really care as long as I'm happy.

I have no idea who I'm suppose to be or where I'm suppose to be in my life, but I know who I wanna be and that's good enough for me.


Peace =)
KnN